Karma-Sometimes it’s a kick in the chest

What goes around comes around.

It’s something you always hear people say, but do you ever really believe it? What’s to say you’ll pay for it in this lifetime? What’s to say it will ever come back around in any lifetime?

Sometimes it’s a subtle thing, maybe you miss or maybe you learn. But sometimes, sometimes it’s a hard kick in the chest. Sometimes Karma comes around with such an intensity that you have no choice but to learn. Those are the lessons you keep with you, those are the moments that change the course of your life forever.

I haven’t had many of those life changing moments, but I had one today. For the first time, I felt connected to people whose lives were affected by my choices in the past. People that weren’t exactly a part of my life, but I impacted theirs none the less.

I realized that there are things in my past that I’ve done, things that I justified by telling myself that it wasn’t my fault, hurt people anyways. That people got hurt without even understanding why or how?

Today, I was that girl, that girl from my past whose heartache I brushed off telling myself she deserved it. Convincing myself that she should have known better than to put herself in that situation. It turns, although we probably should know better, sometimes we still stumble.

Sometimes, the fall is just unavoidable and sometimes it hurts for no good reason.