Sounds easy enough right? Staying in one place, working hard at the same ole’ job, settling into the same apartment and falling into a nice little routine. Maybe it is for some people, but me, I seem to be a beast of a different nature.
I’ve learned, that in life, just because you’re good at something doesn’t mean you should do it. The same way that just because a relationship or friendship makes sense, it doesn’t mean you should pursue it. I’ve always been comfortable with change, and if you know anything about me, you know that change has been the most stable thing in my life for a very long time. By the same token, I’ve always been told how important stability is and how being stable is a part of growing up. I always believed them too, but lately, I’m just not so sure that’s true.
Maintaining stability is something I’ve always struggled with and I always thought it would get easier as I got older and understood better why it was so important. But now that I am older and have had a big dose of responsibility and being stable, I feel the opposite way about it. I think that it’s more important to make the CHOICES that make you happy and not the ones that keep you stable. Stability does not equal happiness. It may make some things in life easier, but easy doesn’t mean happy and I’m a firm believer that anything worth having is worth fighting for.
I know that sometimes making the decision that makes you happier can seem like the impulsive choice, but what does and doesn’t make us happy is something that can change pretty quickly and that’s okay. When those things change, that doesn’t take away from their importance in your life or the place they hold in your heart, they just mean you’ve grown. Just a little.
I sound pretty wise don’t I? If only I could actually take my own advice, then maybe I wouldn’t get so hurt and end up in the impossible situations I always seem to find. It’s like I subconsciously seek out people that just don’t get it. Not that I’m very good at explaining myself, I kind of just expect you to get it…maybe one day you will.
Jennifer M Lima 